What am I doing Wrong??????

I feel like crying tight now. I wish I knew why I can't get my kids to listen & not fight me on everything. I see some kids who dont give their parents a hard time. I am on edge all the time. I am YELLING ALL the time. And I hate it. I feel like a raving lunatic. I guess I need to change me medication to something a bit stronger! LOL All day long it is mom mom mom.....I fear that Joey is becoming lazy or maybe just being a ty[ical man, he cant seem to do anything by himself. Do this, do that, i need. Just get the frick up & do it, or if your dad is here ask him!!!!!!!!! All i want is to have 2 nice little boys who dont hit, head butt, talk back, fight, listen. Is that too much to ask! I dont want them hating me b/c all i do is yell. Joey told to me that I don't like him b/c I screamed at him last night, that made me feel like SHIT! I told him I do like him, i just dont like the way he is behaving! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!

Handsome...

The other night I was sitting next to Joey at the kitchen table.....I looked over at him & was struck by how handsome he has become! He was a beautiful baby & an adorable toddler, but then he was sort of goofy looking. ( I know, terrible mother!) Not sure how to explain it, I guess he was in a transition stage. But know he is looking like a little boy, I guess his face has thinned out a bit, maybe that is what it is. He is a great big brother(for the most part), I see him really trying to take Calvin under his wing. And Calvin will do & say just about anything that Joey does. It is just too funny.





I guess that I am having a hard time coming to terms with the losing of the teeth, starting kindergarten stuff. What happened to my rambunctious baby!! I am entering a whole new world & I am scared.

Then there is my sonny boy...Calvin. He is so tough. I can't quite get a read on him. He is funny, strong willed, stubborn, dramatic & fast! I think he has OCD tendencies. He gets so crazy when things are not just so! He is so smart...I an amazed by the things he says & does. Both of the boys are quick learners. Joey from the beginning would just sit back & observe all that was going on around him. He could see or hear something & be doing it a short time later. Calvin repeats everything in no time at all. He just repeats everything we say. I am a bit scared about how smart he is! I would LOVE to keep him a baby a little while longer, but I don't think that I will be able to do anything about that!!!