Bah humbug!

So I am just going to start rambling & may not make sense. I was getting excited about Christmas. we decided to change how we handle Christmas eve/day this year. trying to focus on what we would like to do for our family of 4. Well a wrench was thrown into our plans. So now I am not sure what is going to happen. i really want it to be about Joey & Calvin this year, but we will see. Just seems like for a time of the year that is supposed to be holly jolly, merry & bright it is nothing but complete & utter bullshit. People are rude, nasty, selfish & just plain ridiculous. People need to put on their big kid underwear, take their big kid pill & grow the frick up!

In other news...I was so proud of Joey today...he was a wise man in his show at school & he was wonderful......he sang & did the moves! In the last few weeks I have noticed an increased love of learning, I am so excited! he is a wonderfully smart & funny boy! He is also very stubborn mouthy & just annoying sometimes.

I really need to keep up with this blog stuff so I can get my frustrations out.....

Growing up

So I was just thinking how fast my baby is growing up. As I carry him to the bathroom to go pee every night, I remember carrying him like that to bed at night, except he fit in my arms better! I am thinking how I mourned the loss of the crib, ginky, quack quack & snoopy. But he has surprised me by carrying quack quack around every so often and switching up the buddies he carries around. He is almnost 5....where did the time go? When did he become a little person that tells me I am mean(LOL) that he is sorry, do I forgive him? Or ask us how we are feeling if we were sick. I mean really? Who is this kid. He is so much like me sometimes it is scarey.

I miss when it was just him & I snuggin on the couch in the morning while he had milk(before he demanded breakfast right away & before we had to hurry out the door for school) we did/do everything together. when I am away from him for some much deserved time to myself I wonder what he is doing & want to be home with him! Then as soon as I am home he quickly starts getting on my nerves! But in retrospect I wold ot have him any other way!

I LOVE YOU JOEY!!!

Random Rants......

I have had many a thought running through my head today. Most of which I am sure that I have forgotten....but first I have to say....REALLY?!? Wedge heeled sandals at the playground? Who the hell dresses like that for an hour on the playground? Ok enough on that subject!

With school having ended I am going to be spending alot more time with Joey. Joey is a smart, funny, beautiful, exasperating, annoying little boy. I am so very lucky that my child can hear, talk, etc., but sometimes I just wish he would STOP!!!!! We took a 5 minute walk to WaWa this evening....he must have asked 100 questions. Some I can answer, most I can not. He is such a sweet little boy, but in the blink of an eye he can turn nasty. He fights me every step of the way. I need to remember that he is a child & does not know any better. I am the adult...I need to change the way I react to him. Problem is I grew up in a house of yellers. Therefore even after swearing that I would NOT be like my parents, here I am screaming at my babies. I open my mouth & I hear my mother. My God that is the last thing I want! I have watched a friend of mine & how she deals with her child & I am in awe of her. I know that people are looking at me when I am in public freaking out at my kids ready to call child services! LOL......

I often look at "other moms" and feel so inadequet. They have better behaved kids, more patience. After getting to know some of the moms I have come to find out that they too are struggling with motherhood. Still there are others that I just dont get. Anyway enough for now!

So here goes......Dont have anything really profound to say right now! Just testing the blog waters! Calvin was really trying my patience today. I know he is only 19 months old, but boy is he a terror. Good for him he is cute:o) Climbing where he shouldn't be, screeching like a howler monkey, throwing food. Joey was not much better this weekend. He is for the most part a good listener, but this weekend he has decided to delberatly disobry us. Then has the nerve tobe mad at us for issuing a consequence & following thru!